my stomach hurts like hell today, i think it’s pms combined with celiac’s and the first week of taking the probiotics. the only thing that seems to help is eating chocolate.

i ain’t complaining.

here’s one piece of a lovely news: i can’t eat almond meal pancakes. they make me incredibly bloated and constipated. i don’t remember how i felt exactly while i was eating coconut flour pancakes so i’m doing a test this week-end. if they turn out to be a problem too, i don’t know what i’ll do. i don’t what to eat anymore.

i probably won’t get any sleep tonight, how upset i am right now.

and work sucks, too. 

i’m really sad.

under400:

Creamy Lemon Cheesecake Yogurt Cupcakes
Gina’s Weight Watcher Recipes

Ingredients: 

• 12 reduced fat vanilla wafers
• 8 oz 1/3 less fat cream cheese, softened
• 1/4 cup sugar
• 1 tsp vanilla
• 6 oz fat-free vanilla Greek yogurt (I used Chobani)
• 2 large egg whites
• 3 tbsp lemon juice
• 1 tbsp lemon zest
• 1 tbsp all purpose flour
• 24 blackberries

1. Heat oven to 350°.
2. Line cupcake tin with liners. Place a vanilla wafer at the bottom of each liner.
3. Gently beat cream cheese, sugar and vanilla until smooth using an electric mixer. 
4. Gradually beat in fat free yogurt, egg whites, lemon juice, lemon zest and flour. Do not over beat. Pour into cupcake liners filling half way.
5. Bake 25 minutes or until center is almost set. 
6. Cool to room temperature. Chill a few hours in the refrigerator. 

Makes twelve cupcakes, 109 Calories each. 
Fat: 4.7 g • Carb: 12.6 g • Fiber: 1.1 g • Protein: 3.6 g • Sugar: 7.1 Sodium: 107.9

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so, i haven’t done another test on coffee w cream. i believe it was the cream that caused the damage so i won’t be testing it any time soon.

i did, however, try coffee w coconut milk. i feel okay, but i didn’t like the taste of it. too sour. it’s like drinking just black coffee w a little bit of sugar (or stevia, in my case), but you can also taste the coconut milk which, to me, is not particularly tasty.

i think i’ll start getting used to drinking just coffee, no cream, no milk, no sugar (but yes stevia :D).

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oh, and i’ve tweaked the recipe for coconut flour pancakes so now they’re perfect.

i feel a bit full, though, after eating them. not good full. 

maybe i’m allergic to coconut. who the hell knows at this point.

oh, hello there, someone whose “about” section i liked and who liked my post about my eating/cooking problems.

a post tagged “personal” so it makes me wonder how did he find it? did he enter “personal” in the search? /interesting idea you have there…/

and btw, tumblr, why can’t i have a “music” page on my main blog? it’s not crucial for my blog’s existence, but it would be nice.

now on to our regular program: i did a little bit of experimenting today, proper cheeky i was. i had coffee with cream, you see. haven’t had coffee or dairy for a month (i’m pretty sure i have candida albicans, too, so i’m on a self-imposed anti-candida diet which prohibits caffeine and dairy; will get tested for that soon so we’ll know for sure).

it was the first time i had cream. i liked it. however, i’ve been bloated ever since and i kinda like breathing so no more cream. well, no more cream after one more test. first, i’ll test drinking just coffee and then coffee w cream again. but i’m pretty sure it was the cream that did the damage. if it was coffee, i think i might start banging my head against a wall. i can’t take it anymore. no grains, no sugar (not even fruit, not even a little bit), no cigs (no matter what they tell you, smokers, quitting never gets easier and you always crave for just one cig), no caffeine. but, a lot of fat. too much fat. way too much fat for my taste. i don’t like fat. i don’t like greasy food. i like em spicy and sweet and salty, even bitter, but fat is not what i like. and these days i’m expected to drown in it. blah. it’s disgusting. the fact that it’s healthy doesn’t help me. and the possibility of eating like this for the rest of my life…

yeah, coffee better be allowed.

also, i cut my hair today. it was supposed to be a pixie cut, but i cut the bangs too much so now i know what i’d look like as a boy. i’m not happy with it. thank god for make up. it looks a bit better when i put a little bit of make up.

sweet lord, my bangs are horrible. way too short. and straight. way too straight.

i really have to to the hairdresser’s next time.

/and not be impulsive,

and not be impulsive,

and not be impulsive/